Monday, October 8, 2012

68* tears in traffic

So many things have been happening...I've been real busy. Along with all the trivial matters, I received a true blessing today. Mi mama is taking me in when it is time for me to move- and the very best part is I get to take my dog, Ravenne with me. My biggest personal concern was what was going to happen to my dog-I honestly thought we would have to be living in my car so I wouldn't have to put her in a shelter or have her euthanized. I cried happy tears when mi mama told me there was no way she would ask me to stay in her home and not allow me to bring Ravenne with me. It is the greatest relief I have felt in months.
Although there was a lot of joy in my day--I also had many moments of sadness. It seems that I am missing Kenny terribly every time I drive in my car. The tears flow freely with such intensity I feel blinded as I'm going from one place to another. When I went to get coffee this morning and later as I drove in the slow traffic down Shaw Avenue I cried and cried. A few days ago I was so overwhelmed with grief I punched the roof of my car as I waited for the red light to turn green. The driver in the car next to me looked at me like I was crazy.Other than that it seems like I'm talking to Kenny more and more. I don't hear him answer or feel his presence close to me but I do think he is listening, or at least I hope so.
I am filled with mixed emotions.
Until tomorrow....

Element of the day (day 68)
#57) La- Lanthanum-]metal  
Discovered in 1839 by Carl Mosander, Sweden.
Used in optical glass, especially for cameras. Also in carbon arc lamps, lights and in medical tracers. The principal use of lanthanum is as a catalyst in petroleum refining, and in nickel-hydride rechargeable batteries.

Found in monazite and bastnasite mined in the USA, China, Russia, Australia and India.  

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