There is so much to say that I can not go into detail on all of it. There were many validations that Kenny is here with me in spirit. She started with saying she "felt" him riding in the car with her on her drive to the store. She said she just wanted to laugh with his lively, giggly energy. She felt like he wanted to make her laugh and that he had done that in life. She talked about how caring Kenny was and that he always wanted to take care of everyone. She said he would sacrifice his feelings to save someone else from hurting, and that he wouldn't share his pain with everyone.That was exactly true to Kenny's nature. She talked of how loving he was -how he liked to give hugs and put his head on my shoulder. Something he did when he was sad or telling me about stuff as we sat on the couch together. She asked me if he wore a hat-> I said he wore a hat all the time. She described how he would take the tip with one hand and the bottom of the cap with the other and turn it a little to the side, which is something Kenny did all the time. I smiled with the memory.
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| The picture with Kenny's top hat-Halloween 2010 |
She talked about Kenny and Vincent being 'like twins' and said she sensed they were very close in age. I told her they were 11months apart. She said there was a very strong closeness between them and how hard it is for Vincent now, that he is trying to process losing Kenny. Her words to me is that Vincent feels like he has lost his other half. Truly Amazing- those were the exact words Vincent said at Kenny's service.
She said he wouldn't tell her about his death, she asked over and over but he wouldn't answer, like he didn't want to go there. So I told her how he died, what he did. She says he said he had tunnel vision when he left. All he thought was how he needed to leave this life, and he didn't think of anything else or anyone else or the consequences of his actions. He mentioned that he thinks he should have stuck it out longer. She said he was surprised at how it affected everyone- he didn't expect so much sadness and grief. He was touched at what was said by everyone at his service and that he said " I didn't see myself that way". She talked about how I swept his hair away from his face. I did that when I saw his body for the first time at the service when I was alone with him.
Then she described Callie and that she is grieving greatly. She said Kenny is watching over her, that they were very close and that he told things to Callie he didn't share with anyone else. He also wanted to thank her for the facebook post she placed after he died.
She then asked about the blue suit, the very blue suit with a tie. I told her that was Ben's suit and he was famous for it. She said Kenny is also with Ben and that was his way of acknowledging Ben.
She said he is happy now, that he wanted to leave and go where he could be happy. She said he lived his life's purpose, which was to experience unconditional love and that I gave that to him-that he really felt loved in his life and that had nothing to do with his leaving. She also said there was nothing anyone could do and not to hold onto how he died.
Other highlights:
-he's happy his brother is driving his car and that Vincent
thinks of Kenny when he gets in the car-and he is in the
car with Vincent when he drives.
- he is stronger now and watching over us
- he knows I miss him but he is okay
- something about 'big shoes', the feeling of shoes being
too big, maybe about his clown shoes?
- something about a bird, I didn't understand
- something about the #12, came up a couple times, I
don't know why; #12 lingered even after the reading
was over- I have no idea about the #12
One of the biggest validations was about the song. She said something about a song that makes me think of him and the words of the song being written. I told her about my blog post and the song I wrote for him. She told me to listen to the words, that the words had meaning.
Before I went she had no information other than I had a son who died- she didn't have his name or my full name or any information at all. I believe she is a gifted medium who gave me the blessing of sharing Kenny's spirit. I believe that Kenny is where he wanted to be and that his soul is on the journey it needs to be on. I am grateful that he left knowing how much I love him and that he loves me still. She said the energy is still there and gave me a quote from Albert Einstein that I don't remember now but will look for tomorrow.
Oh, I almost forgot she said she feels like Kenny comes to me in my dreams-totally true!!
That's all for now, until tomorrow...
Element of the day (day 63)
#78) Pt- Platinum-]metal
Beneficial to full health, or thought to be for plants.
Known in antiquity in South America.
Europeans discovered it in 1735, Antoinio de Ulloa of Spain.
Lustrous, silvery-white metal, very stable. Malleable and ductile metal. Used in jewelry, dental appliances, electrical contacts and equipment, corrosion-resistant equipment, missile nose cones, jet engine parts, catalysts and catalytic converters, in anti-cancer drugs.
Found in its native state, alloyed with other platinum group metals. Produced from mines in Canada, Russia, South Africa, the USA, Zimbabwe and Australia. Some as a by-product from nickel processing.
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