58* Kenny's hair

   Today I had the craziest deja-vu> down to the words on the t.v. which I no longer remember. I was sitting Indian style on Kenny's bed, facing the window with the curtains closed and all the piggy banks staring at me. I was playing spider solitaire on me laptop (an activity Kenny hated); I know! I always think that when I am playing-"Kenny wouldn't want me playing this." I've been in a lot of pain today (female pain) so I'm dressed very casual and I have the air hitting me from the box fan faced in front of me. It's barely been an hour since I moved the fan to be on the other side of the room,,WEIRD>> it came to me out of nowhere, I wasn't even thinking of anything in particular. I remember the first time I saw this image I thought:"why am I in Kenny's room?" It must have been  a very long time ago. Every time I have deja-vu I think- this means I am where I am supposed to be. I guess I am on the right path for now. Maybe there is a positive change coming into my life. G-d knows I need it!!!
   Having the deja-vu makes me remember another story. It was a different dream I had seven or eight years ago. It's a dream I shared with my boys because it freaked me out and over the last few years I wonder if it would have been better off left unsaid; although now I don't think it makes any difference. At the time, Jheremy was still living at home. I think he was 17 or it was around his 18th birthday. I had a dream that one of my sons died at the age of 20. I really thought it was Jheremy in my dream so I told him about it- I told him to be very careful. Jheremy has always had an adventurous spirit- he's done so much more and been many places that no one else in our family will ever go and in my dream my child died in an accident-hit by something. I thought it was a car but I suppose I didn't remember it all correctly. Unfortunately, telling Jheremy about the dream  freaked him out->he even told his closest friends about me telling him he was going to die when he was 20. When he lived to be 21, everyone was relieved. It never occurred to me that it could be one of my other sons I would lose because they were so much younger. As it turned out when Kenny was 20 he looked a bit like Jheremy at 20- similar build, similar hair..it was the golden brown curly hair that sticks in my mind--well its an unpleasant thought and an unhappy memory but it makes me wonder about the subconscious mind and the places we go in our dreams. 

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~~Kenny's hair story~~

   Kenny started letting his hair grow long during his early teens. His hair was golden brown in color, and very curly. As it grew longer, his hair had many ringlets or as I liked to call them "curly Qs". For many years, Kenny just let his hair grow and grow, it was several inches past his shoulders and it was gorgeous, curly hair that he let hang down around naturally. I loved his hair, I was envious that he had such beautiful curls.
   It was during the summer a few years back when Kenny made the drastic change out of the blue. I thought it was another typical weekend that Kenny went to his Grandpa Ken's to go swimming and spend the night. Well, I was wrong about that. Kenny left on a Friday afternoon with his long, flowing hair a quarter of the way down his back and he came home Saturday afternoon practically bald. He walked in the door with the most joyous expression on his face as my jaw dropped to see all his gorgeous hair gone. He was carrying a plastic bag and he announced "Here's my hair, mom" and he put the bag on the kitchen table; where it remained for a few weeks. I put my hand in the bag and held the curls that were once on his head. I wish I had saved some of that hair. I don't have any locks of his curls, it is one of those things that I really wished I had.
   It's kind of funny about Kenny and his hair-after that year, he would cut his hair every summer and then let it grow until the following summer. It became a thing for him the last couple years of his life. 
   After the initial shock of the first time he buzzed his head, I got used to it. He was born fairly bald, he had red fuzz but then he lost it. After that he was the baldest baby ever and he was probably close to a year before he had any noticeable hair. I didn't take him for a hair cut until he was three. There's a slight possibility I have one of his curls saved from his first hair cut but I'm not sure. I will be cleaning out the garage soon so I will look through all his baby stuff.
   That's all for now~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

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Kenny before he cut his hair-2008 (with Jheremy and Vincent)

Kenny after he buzzed his hair-2009

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Element of the day (day 58)
#73) Ta- Tantalum-] metal   
Discovered in 1802 by Anders Ekerburg, Sweden.
Almost impervious to air,water adn all but a few acids. Third highest melting point of all elements. Uses are surgical tools and replacing bone or torn tissue, in alloys that have high melting points and high strength. Alloys used in a variety of high-stress applications, such as nuclear reactors, cutting tools, missiles, aircraft and chemical processing equipment. 

Occurs principally in columbite, tantalite and samarskite, mined in Australia, Brazil, Canada and Central Africa.