48* Love to Kenny

   Today was a mixture of good and bad. I am without cable and internet for an unknown amount of time, which has been a fear of mine since I started this blog so I made my way to Starbucks to create this entry. Something I would never, ever do under other circumstances but I am determined to stick with my agreement with myself to write an entry daily until the one year anniversary of Kenny's death. So here I am..
   My household seems to be unraveling quickly with so many minor problems. For the past two weeks the air conditioning in the house has been blowing hot air and I never know when it will go out. Of course it happened today when I had special people over. Kenny's two best friends came over today for movie day. It's been a very long time since we have all gotten together. We began getting together on the monthly anniversary (or very near to it) the month after Kenny died and our general activity is watching movies; which is a joke amongst us because Kenny hated watching movies and I am sure he is rolling his eyes at us. I can hear him laughing "Really MOM"... It is especially nice because Vincent joins us most of the time. It's interesting the way time has evolved those relationships between my youngest son and Kenny's friends. There was a time when the last thing either of Kenny's friends would ever want is to spend time with Vincent; but time, empathy, understanding, or just sheer maturity has provided a bit of a bond between them now I think. Definitely more than mere tolerance. For me it allows a sense of comfort having them all together. It was a very good part of my day and I laughed for the first time in weeks.
   Speaking of weeks- today is  Tuesday once again, 42 weeks gone,, it sounds like such a long time and some days it feels like it and others days it doesn't. The wall behind Ben and Callie rattled quite a bit today when the train passed. I imagine it was Kenny saying hello :).
   Well my time at Starbucks is about to end--I don't want to say good-bye tonight but it is a must and I am learning that there is something everyday that must be done which I really don't want to do.
    So goodnight to all and goodnight to Kenny flying through the stars* I wonder if there is light and darkness wherever he is now....
       Until tomorrow and as Kenny would say: PEACE
   Love to you Kenny, Mom misses  you lots everyday......

Element of the day (day 48)
#45) Rh- Rhodium -] metal 
Discovered in 1803 by William Hyde Wollastan, England,
A lustrous, hard silvery-white metal. Primary use is as a catallyst. Is alloyed with palladium and platinum to harden those metals. Also used in the coating of mirrors and to form a hard, lustrous coating for silverware, jewelry, and camera parts. A component of catalytic converters to help clean exhaust gases in cars.

One of the platinum group elements. It is produced as a by-product from platinum and palladium mining in USA (Montana), South Africa and Russia.