55* "On the Wrong Side" and a dream

   So many things have gotten in my way of writing today. I had much in my mind that I wanted to say but it will have to wait.
   I've been listening over and over to this song that makes me think of Kenny:
"On the Wrong Side" by Lindsey Buckingham;

I must be going
Kiss me goodbye
All the colors are changing
There's a tear in my eye
Hearts filled with passion
Eyes without sight
Oh, we never went runnin'
On the wrong side

All the faces of liars
And the faces of glass
Oh, they walked by the window
But they never got past
Action for action
Fight for fight
Oh, we never went runnin'
On the wrong side

On the wrong side
On the wrong side
We never went runnin'
On the wrong side

I must be going
Kiss me goodbye
All the colors are changing
There's a tear in my eye
And I'll go on living
All the rest of my life
And I'll never go runnin'
On the wrong side

On the wrong side
On the wrong side
I'll never go runnin'
On the wrong side

I'll never go runnin'
On the wrong side
I'll never go runnin'
On the wrong side
    My hands are shaking as I type and a train went past on the tracks. I am rocking back and forth to hold myself together. When I hear this song I can picture Kenny taking that final lonely walk to the tracks. I wonder if there was a tear in his eye, and I think: 'he did go walking on the wrong side of the track toward the train that took his life'. He had always been timid of doing what was wrong...
   I had a dream on March 14, 2012  
My dream...
I was looking out a window, the sky was bright outside
Saw Jheremy and Kenny walking side by side
in long, dark overcoats
Kenny's hair was buzzed, shining gold in the sunlight
He looked older but Jheremy looked the same
Except they were both extremely tall and thin
Jheremy was talking although I could not hear what he was saying
Kenny was smiling his beautiful happy smile
They were passing by the window
Then Kenny turned his head and smiled directly at me
I smiled in my sleep surprised to see his face
Woke up-- 7:27am

I would love another dream of Kenny's smiling face
Until  tomorrow...

Element of the day (day 55)
#55) Cs- Cesium-] metal  
Beneficial, or thought to be for plants and animals. 
Discovered in 1880 by Robert Bunsen and Gustov Kirchoff, Germany.
Softest of all metals, about as soft as wax. A very low melting point. If held in your hand, it would melt. Used in photoelectric cells, infrared lamps, special glass and in radiation monitoring equipment.

Only found in a few minerals. Chiefly obtained from pollucite. Mined primarily in Canada as well as Zimbabwe.