--Kenny's glasses--
The thing about Kenny's glasses is that they were an integral part of Kenny's appearance. He started wearing them regularly when he started driving although he had them for years before then. Interestingly, he was a natural for glasses. They looked like they belonged on him. He had more of a 'Kenny look' with the glasses than without. The glasses he was wearing when he died weren't his favorite. I should have thought more of it when he came home with those frames a couple months before he left this Earth for good. He must have already given up....
Sometime last summer Kenny broke his favorite glasses ever; they were rectangular shaped Ray-Bans with a black shell like frame with a few miniscule swirls of grey in random spaces. Now Kenny wasn't the kind of person to be swayed by name brands, he couldn't care less; but he really liked those frames. To the point that when one of the temples broke off he continued to wear the glasses for months with only one temple on the left side to hold on to his ear. After me nagging him for far too long, he finally went to replace his frames in early November. I was expecting him to come home with the same frames- because Kenny practically always stuck to what he liked and I knew he REALLY liked those frames. But he didn't come home with the same frames, he came home with very simple thin black frames in the same shape. He didn't like them at all, in fact he was upset with me for pushing him to replace them. I knew he could afford the Ray-Ban frames but when I asked him why he didn't get the same ones, he said they were too expensive. It was a sign. A sign I ignored or didn't catch or something. I should have known. I mean Kenny never made a big deal about things but I could tell he didn't like the new glasses but at the same time didn't care.
I don't know what happened to his favorite frames. I haven't been able to find them in his room anywhere. I guess the store kept them when he replaced them.
Anyway......
I walked ahead of the others on the R/R tracks. All the way I went to place where he would have started walking. I walked in the middle of the far track because that's the direction his father said he had been walking. I walked in between the rails from one track to the other for twenty minutes with my head straight down the entire time. Hoping, praying and crying, talking to Kenny ...and there they were. Kenny's glasses with the lens blown out of course. The simple black frames were in the middle of the tracks, one of the temples was a little twisted but they were completely intact. I was grateful that I found them because it was like getting a piece of Kenny back. A piece that meant so much to me. Sadly enough when Kenny went to get those frames, it was the first time I didn't go with him. I don't know if that made any impact on him; having to do those things alone. I offered to go, but he said no because I wasn't feeling well. I knew he could do fine on his own but I wonder if it got him to thinking about being alone, and having to do things alone.
I don't know, it may never have entered his mind. I do know if I had been there I would have persuaded him to get the glasses he really wanted and he would have done it too. Probably rolling his eyes and smirking at the same time with a good feeling inside his heart. Nowadays the simple black frames are perched on the picture frame of a magnificent computer drawing of Kenny done by one of Vincent's friends. Before that they were next to Kenny's senior picture. His glasses are here in his home where they belong...it was the last physical gift Kenny ever gave me. I know he heard me asking and led me to them. Thank you Kenny...I will always love you.
Element of the day (day 16)
#15) P-Phosphorus (nonmetal solid)
Essential for life to exist in plants and animals.
Discovered in 1669 by Henning Brandt, Germany.A nonmetal element. Essential to life, the single greatest use in fertilizers. Used in insecticides, fireworks, baking powder, chinaware, glass, water softeners, soft drinks, pharmaceuticals, and metal treatments.
Main minerals are apatite and fluorapatite. Mined mostly in USA (Florida), Kazakhstan, China, Morocco, and Tunisia. Other minerals are phosphophylite, turquoise, and vivianite.
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