so it's been 2 years now that Kenny is gone; sometimes it feels like forever ago and sometimes it feels like time has stood still
today I have been busy packing, packing, packing and cleaning.
yesterday was Thanksgiving again--two years without Kenny>> two years without turkey,, seems very odd to not have any regularity in one of the holidays we liked so much. last year because of the grief and this year because of the craziness.
will it ever seem normal again?? is there any normal? we never have been that normal of a family but that's o.k.-- I'm good with that-- I don't think I like normal all that much but I do like some sort of consistency.
I cooked very little-] in fact other than cornbread, I only made mashed potatoes and pumpkin pie
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his room is nearly packed-- it will be empty before the end of the week
it looks different--] the only signs of Kenny are the picture of him and Ben on his t.v. and his element chart that is still on the wall
now, there is nothing extraordinary about Kenny's t.v.-> other than the warning on it that is! A shining example of Kenny's sense of humor-- see for yourself
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| the warning on Kenny's t.v. |
the element chart is reflected on the screen
I don't want to take it down so I will wait till the last day I think or when I can force myself to do it
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sad, sad news~~ my uncle died tonight,, same day as Kenny~ different year
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movie night was especially touching-- Callie gave me a hug at just the right moment
Vincent and Ben were quite entertaining-- I'm sure Kenny was listening with amusement from somewhere
we watched one of my all time favorite movies =
'the Avengers' -- such a good movie- so much fun!!
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December 5,2013
two years ago today, many people gathered in a little chapel to say good-bye to Kenny.
it was an extraordinary event-- it was alive-> heartfelt, painful, caring, humorous, heart-breaking and thoughtful. I am grateful for the friends and family who spoke of the boy I knew-- the young man whom I admired and loved beyond all capacity of reasoning.
there are no limitations on the love I have for my children-->
I cherish their very existence and hold onto the memories we shared
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tonight, there was another gathering-- to say good bye to my Tio Manuel
this gathering was somber and quiet-- very different than Kenny's-] remembering the last day I looked at Kenny hits a tender spot in my heart but kind of in a good way-> it still hurts, I still cry and miss him but it does feel a little less broken
and although the healing is very, very slow-- almost like a crawling snail-- at least it's healing and any progress is positive
I have thoughts and plots of pictures and stories to come; I have many incomplete plans for ways to keep Kenny's memories alive. I pray that I make greater strides in the coming year than the past year and that I will continue to heal without losing my connection to Kenny.
Until next time-- Love and Peace...
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In Loving Memory
Manuel Valencia Robles 1946~2013
<3 Thank you for always caring
<3 Thank you for being the first and only Robles to pay condolences when Kenny died
:) Thank you for all the smiles, laughs, and happy memories
Rest In Peace~~Enjoy Heaven and dancing with my mom
Until we meet again...I will always remember
me:" I love you Tio"
you: "I love you more"
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| ~Tio Manuel and my mom, Noemi~ 1966 |
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