161* Kenny's 24th birthday and the tattoo

I would be there with you now wishing you a 
Magical 24th Birthday <3 and catching up on all we've experienced in the last three years

Unfortunately, that can't be for now. Sometimes, I think you visit me in my dreams. Its more a feeling than a memory.

I found a special penny the other day. Mostly special because I hadn't found a random penny in quite a while and also because the place where I found it is special to me. 

I also added two new bottle-caps to Kenny's collection. Someday, I will put them in a cool jar or something. I know I will continue to add to the collection all the days in my life, and as I am having many new experiences I am gathering caps he never owned.


2 new drinks... :)

Life has been very interesting the last couple weeks.
On October 2nd I finally got my first tattoo in memory of Kenny. It didn't turn out quite the way I wanted so I will have to re-do it in the future. But it still is special in that the dates were written by Kenny's best friend Ben and traced for the tattoo.

Born:  October 15 1991

Died:   November 29 2011

This is how it would look if it was black and gray. Unfortunately, its not.  

I recently read a book called The Reason I Jump   

by Naoki Higashida.  Its a very special book written by a 13 year old boy with autism.

 Inside the book is a story called I'm Right Here. What is interesting about this story is that it sounded as if it came from the perspective of a boy who died. Almost as if Kenny found a new way to speak to me. The book came into my life unexpectedly while talking to a friend who has a child with autism. 

  I had to return the book, however I plan to add it to my personal library as soon as possible.                                                                                                 

In a way, its proof that Love reaches beyond all boundaries in so many ways.                                                                                                      

After hours of tears this morning, I managed to get through the day with all its demands of work and education. I celebrated Kenny's life and birthday by continuing to enrich my own. This is the first year I have been able to do that. I think my love for self and life has truly been renewed during this year of 2015. Amazing, the journey of life with all its trials, twists, and turns- through heart crushing breaks filled with dark nights and days- somehow manages to find a lighted path with hope and joy. That is my life. And I am grateful I have found my way...

Until next time<3 <3 <3 <3

It's very much like the "Kenny dance"!