162* Halloween post

So,, once again Halloween is upon us.  Another year without my Kenny love<3 .  Halloween , or as I like to call it All Hallow's Eve is and always will be my favorite holiday.  It was also Kenny's favorite holiday, which makes me love me it more. So here are a few picture memories of my adorable son to remember the good times....

Kenny- 2 yrs -1993- Vincent 1 yr.

Kenny as a pirate- 10 yrs. old

Kenny with best friend Ben- -- 2009

//Kenny's business card  2009////

Kenny and Callie- 2010

Kenny's last dress up- 2010

 

Not quite sure what to call this look- 2010

 It's hard to believe its been so many years without him...I'm actually going to dress up this year again... as a gypsy for the first time since Kenny has been gone...I hope he is watching down from Heaven.... and telling me " have fun Mom".   and maybe I will see him in the starlight.***

Until... Next time....Love <3  Peace, and Happiness :}

To this day Kenny's  two best friends Ben and Callie are still together!!! Total Happiness <3 <3 

161* Kenny's 24th birthday and the tattoo

I would be there with you now wishing you a 
Magical 24th Birthday <3 and catching up on all we've experienced in the last three years

Unfortunately, that can't be for now. Sometimes, I think you visit me in my dreams. Its more a feeling than a memory.

I found a special penny the other day. Mostly special because I hadn't found a random penny in quite a while and also because the place where I found it is special to me. 

I also added two new bottle-caps to Kenny's collection. Someday, I will put them in a cool jar or something. I know I will continue to add to the collection all the days in my life, and as I am having many new experiences I am gathering caps he never owned.


2 new drinks... :)

Life has been very interesting the last couple weeks.
On October 2nd I finally got my first tattoo in memory of Kenny. It didn't turn out quite the way I wanted so I will have to re-do it in the future. But it still is special in that the dates were written by Kenny's best friend Ben and traced for the tattoo.

Born:  October 15 1991

Died:   November 29 2011

This is how it would look if it was black and gray. Unfortunately, its not.  

I recently read a book called The Reason I Jump   

by Naoki Higashida.  Its a very special book written by a 13 year old boy with autism.

 Inside the book is a story called I'm Right Here. What is interesting about this story is that it sounded as if it came from the perspective of a boy who died. Almost as if Kenny found a new way to speak to me. The book came into my life unexpectedly while talking to a friend who has a child with autism. 

  I had to return the book, however I plan to add it to my personal library as soon as possible.                                                                                                 

In a way, its proof that Love reaches beyond all boundaries in so many ways.                                                                                                      

After hours of tears this morning, I managed to get through the day with all its demands of work and education. I celebrated Kenny's life and birthday by continuing to enrich my own. This is the first year I have been able to do that. I think my love for self and life has truly been renewed during this year of 2015. Amazing, the journey of life with all its trials, twists, and turns- through heart crushing breaks filled with dark nights and days- somehow manages to find a lighted path with hope and joy. That is my life. And I am grateful I have found my way...

Until next time<3 <3 <3 <3

It's very much like the "Kenny dance"!