155* Kenny stuff and Pikachu socks

Between two jobs, endless car troubles, and a lack of sleep-- not only is my energy zapped. But, my brain is mindless and without much inspiration as well.

Although stress has been overtaking my spirit lately, I try to keep Kenny alive in my life in little ways. There are a few rituals I incorporate daily as I prepare for work. One is I always wear a pair of earrings in memory of Kenny. Most often opals, which was his birthstone. I have a pair that are circles and a pair that are squares; however, I wear them diagonally in a diamond shape.

opals-- October birthstone

I also always wear the necklace with Kenny's ashes and peace sign. Over the last month I have gotten many compliments on this necklace. Not that people know whats in it. A portion of the ashes have clumped together and stuck to the heart as time has passed.

June 10, 2015

In addition to these rituals, I carry one of "Kenny's pennies" in my pocket or shoe. I don't pick up as many pennies or feathers as I used to. However, I found a shiny penny in the closet of the room where I am staying earlier in the month. I took a picture of it and left it where I found it. It is still there now. Also, I find myself carrying a super feather when I drive that I found one day when my car was being worked on, at the barn where my mechanic works. 
My mechanic (and friend) is convinced that Kenny is watching over me because there have been times that I should not have been safe in my car when I have not been hurt. The thermostat went wacko all the way to the HOT orange square after I had driven from Pismo Beach to Fresno. Luckily it didn't overheat until after I was nearly at my destination. The thermostat was replaced and then the front wheel bearings fell apart and the brakes went out a few days after I returned to Pismo. Miraculously, I did not get into an accident. AND then the wheel fell off when it was hitched to a dolly to be towed the next day. That could have happened while I was driving. I was able to make it safely to the place I live even though the wheel was so loud I was afraid to drive it. Kenny must be keeping me safe. That thought is comforting. Makes me feel like he is still close by in his own way.

~~HOT CAR  June 2015~~

new super feathers

I have these feathers in my car I found awhile ago. The longer one I carry in between my fingers as I drive because it starts to fly away when the window is open. 

I often see reminders of Kenny. At work a couple weeks ago I found Pikachu socks, which of course I had to buy. I haven't worn them yet. Hmmm... I think I will wear them to work tomorrow. Pikachu reminds me of Kenny because he used to be Pikachu crazy when he was in first grade and for awhile after that. I've never been sure if Pikachu is a girl or boy Pokemon but whichever it is, it was Kenny's favorite for many years. 

Isn't Pikachu cute?

Lastly,, this text keeps accidentally showing up when I close my messages. It was the last text I saved from Kenny. He sent it to me the day before he died. It has the date from August because that is when I transferred it from his phone to mine at the time I had his phone turned off. It has been transferred to two phones since his passing... I hope I can have it for all the days of my life. Until next time,, PEACE< LOVE >HOPE                       

I think Kenny is trying to tell me something... I truly wish I could hear his voice,, and his laugh... At least I can still see his smile in my mind.