(from February 3rd)... unfinished
I began re-reading this blog a little over a week ago. Re-living all the tragic moments, minutes, hours, days, months and now years since the loss of my most precious son.
I have come to know that loss so well. It resides in me as part of my destiny in this life. Three years have gone by and the missing is still the same. No less heartache-- it trails behind me,, s-t-r-e-c-h-e-d in time.
I long to see you again Kenny. I wish we could sit and have a conversation as we did a trillion times during your life. I wonder what your words would be now. What is your spirit saying as you watch over me?
I know you are near in your own way. I feel you. I do not see you as I once did but your energy is there. I am filled with sadness. I try to fight it. This moment I have lost. I cry for I know that you will never return to this life. Of course, I have known this a long time.
I think I expected more. More of the spiritual connection-- the ability to be more in tune with your energy. Is that to come in time? When will our souls reconnect???
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