51 months since the tragedy that changed my life.
I am so upset with myself right now, but I think I will have to accept that for this year I will have to get the blog done when I am mentally capable and can make the time during this hectic period of my life.
On my personal journey to recovery I am for the first time since Kenny's death changing my life by choice instead of circumstance. It is an extremely tiring schedule with very little time for rest or unwinding. It is also the most gratifying experience I have brought into my life in many years.
I am pursuing a new career~~ one that I believe will eventually lead me to fulfill my lifetime dream of working in the art of healing the spirit. I once thought I would complete that work through healing the mind; however life has lead me to begin through the means of healing the body. In this pursuit I am in the process of receiving the education necessary to becoming an esthetician, which will allow me to do facial and head massage as well as complete body and skin treatments. This is step one of my plan. Skin being the largest organ on the body is exactly the right place to start because it affects our overall being more than most people realize. Once I am established in this industry I will pursue my license for becoming a massage therapist. After I have both licenses I will be able to work as a full body healer. Then I will incorporate energy healing. I will have to allow the universe to lead me in the direction that is best suited for me to make a positive impact in this world, so at the current time I am not sure in which capacity I will include energy healing. However, my interests are many ~ light healing, crystal healing, sound healing...
Anyway for the following months to come I am putting in 31-37 hours in school in addition to working approximately 25 hours a week and commuting 2&1/2 hours a day five days a week. Needless to say most of my energy is spent with these daily activities, not to mention homework and studying. Incredibly,, for the most part I am loving it despite the exhaustion.
Unfortunately, it also means that I am typing this blog entry at 2:27 am the morning after leap year has ended. I hate that I missed such a special day for writing especially because it is the first leap year since the year following Kenny's passing into the spirit world. I don't believe I received a single sign from Kenny. In fact it seems like it has been a while... OH Actually, oddly enough I just remembered something. I was drinking a bottle of water when I dropped my cap and it rolled under the bed. When I went to get it> amongst the dust was a single lone penny. I meant to get a picture but I forgot. I think I will try to take one now. Not sure
how well it will show in the darkness...
as I thought, total darkness; but as I went to retrieve this picture I saw another with three pennies I know I took earlier this year. I had forgotten all about it. I am grateful to be wrong about my thought that the signs were not being received. I will pay close attention so I don't miss any.
Until next time....I LOVE YOU KENNY and
MISS YOU VERY VERY MUCH <3 Wish you had been here to see this with me...
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| Sunset @ Grover Beach 2016 |
